Thursday, 15 May 2008

  • Pushing yourself to the limits not strongly enough

    Deep inside you know that anyone can make it great. Anyone can push through the barriers that they have set for themselves, and move on to a higher level, improving oneself in the process, reaching heights, fulfilling desires of the heart, and resolving inner conflict in some way. You can prove to yourself that you can be in that place--in that one place where another person has been dominating. You were like that before. Tests seemed to be a breeze, you get high honors at the end of the school year.People actually knew you for your brain...and not for your taste in clothes, or the way you wore your hair. That was before, this is now.
    It was then that you realized that you were starting to lose it, like something had caused your brain to disintegrate.You're still good at it...but not good enough anymore...good enough to get you to that place where you once were. At the top. Another person had it.Another person has your place now. You don't 'rule' anymore. Someone unexpectedly grabbed your chair the moment you fell down. As you tried to go back to the surface and breath, you feel that the more you struggle you create, the more people are finding their way to the surface easily. Confused but determined, you looked for ways, but never really made it until now.

    Another challenge is ahead of you, but you know you have wasted your time distracted and too carefree.
    What is it, really?

    You don't care anymore because it's useless, or it's useless because you don't care anymore?


    Until now, you try recalling..those things you did that made you one of the best. Why did you lose it? Or rather, what did you gain for it to be set aside?


    "Libre lang mangarap." How can a person like me, with two weeks until the National Licensure Exam, with a mediocre amount of knowledge, make it to the top?

    Nothing is impossible. But how would one make that real?

Friday, 02 May 2008

  • I'm back...

    I think a few animals had already evolved during my absence.haha. I've been gone for too long since I was too busy writing entries in my Friendster blog. I declared my official transfer, here but I have yet to make a few changes with the public entries. Since I'm attending 8-hour review sessions 7 days a week for the NLEs this coming June 1 & 2,still, my blog entries will be a bit scarce.But I will be updating. That I can promise.

    Speaking of reviews, I took my test drill in Medical Surgical Nursing today.
    To my horror, I got a low score.
    What did I learn in college anyway?
    And to think it's my fave subject.


    A few weeks ago, I was in need for something new and refreshing to watch. Dawn Yang had a recent entry about her favorite romantic flicks. I decided it would be good to check out a few of those she listed. I'm currently watching this right now. I'm still in the first quarter of the movie.So far so good.


Sunday, 23 December 2007

  • I've been gone for ages. But I will certainly be back after Christmas with a vengeance. My only problem is uploading almost 300 pictures all at once.... hmmmmm.....

Saturday, 03 November 2007

  • Currently Listening
    MCMXC A.D.
    By Enigma
    Mea Culpa
    see related

    If my blog had hands...

    It would creep out of the computer screen and strangle my sleeping body to death while screaming " If I have to die, then at least you'd die first!!!" ....wait...shoot...it's giving me the creeps already.....

    I haven't blogged for ages (here goes the familiar blog line)....because

    I'm lazy, I have nothing really significant to blog about (which might mean that my life is a playground of boredom and blandness (there such a word as "blandness"?)), and if I had to pull a Dawn Yang or a Nira Chan--I actually don't have those uber-glam (and ahem...envy-inducing) photos to share (which I admit makes me visit their blogs often)...No cool cams to capture striking photos, a very poor amount of knowledge with Photoshop, and creativity that halts at breakneck speed without warning...
    Oh well...

    Whatever happened to "Work with what you have."...I don't know. I hate hearing and facing life's cliche sayings. Cause they are what they are.CLICHE SAYINGS. Sometimes they can be reality's biggest opposite...


    a LIE generously coated with optimism

    (well...I didn't say always but--)

    People spout things like "Be content with what you're given and then you will be happy."

    If you tell that to people you'll get (mostly) "OH REALLY?"

    Yeah. In this modern world, cliche sayings  slowly become exactly what I have defined above.

    Think about it. ( You can still try with "Love is blind." and "First love never dies." and many others)

    Or you can always prove me wrong...after all I'm just human..plagued with insecurities that can be cured with a box of dark chocolates and worldly possessions(haha..hedonistic, materialistic, and introverted emotional eater..LOL)(of course my brain is running with a million ideas again, I couldn't think  properly anymore)


    ------On a brighter note....I leave you with an i-dressup version of me...or so I think...(thanks to Nira who hooked me into this)




    (Had a very similar outfit so I decided to post this one)

    and these...

    SUPER EXPIRED PICS OF ABOUT 2 MONTHS AGO...



    Bryan trying to pull a cowboy stunt in the Pedia Ward playroom..
    aahh..the perks of a nursing student...you get to play on breaks.LOL.





    Ignoring the "ghost" scares of NorthGen Hospital...
    they should have minded the sign...



    It's ironically weird..Warren falls asleep in a coffee shop..
    oh well at least his green shirt compliments the green straws..LOL.


    A view from the top...err...reflection of the mirrored ceiling...yeah, this is one of my fave

     places in school..




    The F.A.T. (Food Addict Team) slash DoTA Allstars members (sound noobish no??) sans Keith...

    Surprisingly I've blogged again.

Wednesday, 26 September 2007



  • Will post photos after photos after photos later.
    (This is just a cut from my Friendster blog)


    3:51 PM

    To all the saems...Okay, ing ani ay man diay, no problem. I will let you have it the way you want it.

Friday, 14 September 2007

  • and he Seid.....

    well, what can I say...he's too amazing to be true...

    is there anyone else more intelligent than he is...??

    even the head of Bioethics thinks his intelligence is "umaapaw"...

    and he's cute pa jud....

    amazing....

    totally inspiring....

    If you know who you are...(if anyone has already guessed who he is....)

    Thank you very much. From the bottom of our giggly, awestruck, very impressed and dumbfounded hearts.





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  • born hedonistic with an inclination to be materialistic*gets bored when there is nothing to read*expressive*animated*a girl of a thousand words and gestures*dancer*speller(?)*feeler(haha!)* tomato hater* failed crash dieter*fashion critic by right*nursing student*net and music addict*loves Asian fashion and entertainment.... I'M NOT PRETTY OR ATTRACTIVE WHATSOEVER...JUST A BRAIN BRIMMING WITH TOO MUCH IDEAS...

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